World beware! Dee is BLOGGING

Alright so how to begin here…well..first of all I never had a blog so this would be my first. I used to view blogs as sort of a…”here world notice my existence” and kind of an online mini Wikipedia version of..a psychiatrist? My views have slightly changed to say the least and here I AM! Since I never wrote a blog before, I am not quite sure if there are any guidelines…its interesting that it became such an internet phenomenon. It used to be live journal, but talking into cyberspace was well…not that fun, it pretty much responded with a “we don’t give a cr*p” blank stare. Regardless, this is to be a documentation of my rather weird and eccentric life, you see, i’m not like most people or so my priest told me right before he forced me to sign some off looking ‘straight to hell’ notice, don’t know what that was about! *I is laughing* But in all seriousness I don’t seem to fit any mold of any sort, I am a girl, who enjoys video games and fashion, and costumes, and mostly hang out with guys, which im sure many girls could identify with…or so i thought. It takes a long time to find people you can truly trust. So YEY to finding some of the most awesome friends one could have. They shall be mentioned as this lovely tale continues.

The main reason this blog is taking place is because for one..I’m bored, yes that is right, boredom can be a great motivator and this is proof. Secondly it is because this is my outlet, that’s right interwebs, you are my dumping ground, and you will LIKE it. Thirdly and probably the most important reason is that I’m attempting to document my life on my way to becoming a fashion designer. So you are all pretty much forced to participate in this weird journey.

I would begin at the start but, there really isn’t much order to how i run things, so we shall begin on today, 3:20 am September 13th a good day as any. Got up at oh, noon, going to be early in the morning is a bad idea, but inspiration takes over and its kind of hard to stop. In the fashion world people hardly sleep anyways, they sort of become a nicer looking zombie version of themselves. I started the fashion program at Ryerson University in Toronto in 2007, for those not familiar it is right in downtown Toronto right now where the Toronto International Film festival is taking place. Missing it yet AGAIN due to lack of funds. Work has been a bit hard to find these days, especially for students, and people with minimal experience. I had an interview today at Yuk Yuk’s comedy club, thought the resume wasn’t as updated as i would have liked so I emailed them a new version and now the waiting game continues. I found out about it through a friend of my roommates, they are freaking bad ASS. Nicole and Kyle bought 16 tickets to metal concerts so far..and these are only until December. I am going to see Children of Bodom with them, it will be epic epic fun. They have V.I.P passes so they get to meet the band and I heard they are pretty kick ass guys, hope I get to say hello!

We are all on an adventure to creating the most bad-ass pirate bar/den. We got a game plan and everything! We got some awesome bones hanging off the walls and skeletons in cages and I’m going to make the windows look all pirate-ship-like. Interestingly enough it is Frag like a pirate day? or talk like a pirate day on Sept 19th.Either way we be having some PIRATE FUN. I got hooked onto dark rum, cause what is that bullshit of Bacardi and white rum, disgraceful and tastes like ass. Speaking of taste…brownies from the box and vanilla ice cream make great sandwich and should be savored, it’s especially awesome when one is slightly tipsy.

We watched District 9 before we got back to our humble abode. It is one of the most amazing movies i’ve seen all year, hell..ever.The social commentary in it hits you like a freight train ever so subtly. You might as well replace the words “aliens” with “insert-some-poor-ass-helpless-country”. It is truly a masterpiece on film, also, my god..its like someone put it through a meat grinder, there was more meat and guts and flesh being thrown around than I’ve seen in a while, so if you don’t fancy that, you will have to deal, its gore-tastic, yet appropriate to the setting and not “needlessly” done; at least I don’t feel that way. Avatar will be awesome CG, we shall see if they also nailed it. Exciting prospect psychological thriller/creepy ass people in a psych ward movie is shutter Island. Good to see a movie like that direct by Scorsese. I have high hopes. On the way back, I was in a pretty murderous mood, and pretty much hated humanity. The greed, the corporate bullshit, and the total low scum of the earth behavior that makes us who we are. It has sort of occurred to me..not for the first time but almost renewed my disgust with how much of the world is run. District 9 is 99.9% accurate I’m sure of how things would go if that situation actually took place. First thought would be how to use new technological finds as weapons and to just hate someone different than us. Interestingly enough the aliens in District 9 were in fact very intelligent and capable of deep feeling and I found myself siding with them almost the entire film. The way humans treated them and their new acquired knowledge shows a distressful and deeply dark nature of humanity, that made me kind of go, we should just all be exterminated, we disgraced ourselves as species, and we don’t deserve this amazing planet. What we do with all the power and knowledge that we acquired would be sooner used to find ways to wage more wars and develop more military power than we already know what to do with.

What has this world come to, I look around me every day, and its becoming bleaker by the minute. It’s becoming harder to point out the people that aren’t taking part in the total fake and greedy, and just plain cookie cutter type of life. I try and be optimistic, I really am, but I find myself get angrier every day. People not pursuing their dreams or unable to due to restrictions in funds and the shit loopholes the damn offices throw them in, that makes them walk in circles until their patience and brain explodes. Damn offices and paper work that is easily freaking bypassed ALL the time by people that shove it under the rugs when it is convenient for them. We insist so often on going by the book and following protocol when so much of the world is run through loop holes created by some low life lawyers that lost the meaning of their profession and conscience. Then there are those particularly fake people that exist on every level of society that make up this structure, this shit tower that just gets worse. They are everywhere. In the entertainment industry, the corporate/business sector, the fashion world. Why is it so hard to find people that AREN’T out to screw you. There was a time when you could say “yeah some people are like that” but the more time passes the more you realize that almost 80% of the people you run into are like that, makes you appreciate the people in your life all the more (the ones that are trust worthy that is).

There is this whole indie/alternative wave happening around, kind of reminds me of the 70s. I love indie music that is good, and I love alternative and metal music as well, but my god…is it poser central. The Emo wave seemed to have been replaced by the indie wave. Since when is it mainstream to dislike mainstream! Isn’t the whole point of indie music to be in smaller groups?? and be an individual? Everywhere I look they are all the same. Totally missing the whole damn point of being indie! Suddenly adopting a look makes you part of the gang…Indie has become mainstream…THINK about that for a second people. Isn’t there something a little oxymoronic about that? That’s the kind of thing that makes me angry, the damn fakers and posers. Suddenly every guy looks like they haven’t taken a shower for a century and its “cool” or no..I’m sorry “deck”.  This whole image thing of a certain culture has become rather weird, for one it was a subculture that is now mainstream and especially since the whole point of it is to be underground and to like up and coming bands, but now…people purposely look for up and coming bands to like just so they can rub it in your face that you havent heard of them yet. Just as it was with being emo, if you are happy to be emo you are doing..something wrong. My god are t-shirts educational. Same for indie music, if its mainstream to be indie..you are officially no longer indie…think about it..please..before my brain explodes…

Dee. out..its 4 am..gawd damn it I always do this..